Some people love shopping. I am not one of those people. I think I used to be...way, way back. But not now. Now I associate shopping with debt...and wasted time...and when it comes to shopping for clothes for myself, misery!
I'm 11 days in on my weight loss journey. I'm on a 11 day streak in my food diary, staying within my calories for the most part, and I'm 7.2 lbs down as of this morning. I was feeling GOOD!
And then I went to the mall.
I had a little event coming up at work and needed to find a little something new to wear. On my lunch break (which ended up being a 2 hour lunch break, btw) I headed to the mall. There are two plus size stores in the local mall...Lane Bryant and Torrid. I'm not in love with either of them because shopping at either is hit or miss for me. They are both perfectly good stores, but I am not a perfectly good plus size chick. I am, and always have been, disproportioned, which makes shopping miserable. My hips and booty are a size or two bigger than my waist and bust. Pants have always been a challenge. Empire waist/tunic style shirts are much better for me but you might find one or two on a good day. I have always known it but it seems fresh and new each time...I HATE TO SHOP FOR ME!!!
I came home with one new pair of yoga pants, in a size 22/24, which for the record, I have NEVER bought before. Misery....
On a more positive note, I counted it up and there are 18 weeks between me and our summer vaca beach trip. At 2 lbs a week, that equates to 36 lbs, which would put me in the 170's. I think I will still hate shopping, BUT I know I will like it better than I do now.
I'm officially letting it go, here and now (at least until next shopping assignment). Yesterday is gone and I have to move on. I've committed to spending my time on the here and now...on what matters today. Thank you for letting me vent. What are you struggling with today? Is it weight related? Family issues?
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